Move on

Move on
you’ve stared at that wall for too long
it hasn’t budged
so you need to
I know, your thoughts are on a loop
stuck in the past
reliving that conversation as though
you could undo what you said
and take back the hurt you used
now everyone is bruised
but there’s no going back
and it’s not for a lack of staring at a wall.
overthinking doesn’t heal wounds
so move. Sin doesn’t disqualify you.
It’s a war and you’re an imperfect,
hurting, broken, still learning soldier.
You are the one God chose to select
don’t stand still as though dead

Take another step
you said what you said
you were forgiven when you chose to repent
now shake it off and hit the reset

Eyes off the blank wall and toward the battlefield
it’s in this moment that you choose not to yield
it’s not the first moment you’ve had to push past
where would you be if you used the past like a shield?

That time when you said what you needed to say
and it hurt but you were right.
The slammed door,
yeah I’ve been there
hanging up without apologizing
ending the call after building a wall
giving a cold shoulder
not saying enough, saying too much

When you said no
when you had to let go
when you struck the first blow

Haven’t we all?
haven’t we all hurt enough people to know
that there is no rewind?
so why do we hit play again in our head?
it’s an old recording of
a scene that can’t be edited
there is no deleting
so stop overthinking.

Why are you only reliving the failures?
You are so much more
you got to here
stop decorating your headspace with heartache
enough unpreventable pain happens already
don’t sit here with the hurt replaying
in a pit of self-pity staring at a wall
you’ve messed up before
I promise, it’ll happen more
you can’t hide and just kneel
simply because this hurt hasn’t yet healed
you will survive this and see it happen more

Move on
burned bridges don’t rebuild themselves
time doesn’t heal without some help
stop waiting for someone to offer you a hand
stop praying for a white flag
no one is coming to your rescue
so fight for the God who enlisted you
take initiative and make your move
stop asking why
stop saying what if
you admit you’re not innocent
now get over it.

You’re gonna be alright
take a step.
right, left, right, left
don’t look back at this one yet
it will be a while before you see the Author's intent
deep breath
move on
make a new memory
do something you love
remember your goals
keep going
stand up from the chair
turn your back to the wall
and end the overthinking that led to your lockdown